good evening my people!
DAY of excepting!

Today i found out and excepted myself as being able to be a great friend if i am NOT sexually attracted to you!
I soooooooo wanted to be like most of the guys are; cool and friendly and caring on a friendship after a love affair.
Well, i could not fool myself any longer.
No matter how much i wanted to be like the guys, i could not!!!
Instead i pretended to be all liberal and easy going but if i wanna jump ya all the well thought out planing goes right out the door!!!!
So sexual attraction and friendship don't go well together for me!!
its just who i am!!
And it would be strange to think of my male friends in an intimate way,i love them but don't wanna .... them!

It like buying those great high heels and knowing they gonna hurt after a while but nevertheless i keep wearing them and pretend to love them and smile but my feet crying out for help and get me out of those fucking wanna be's!!!!!